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I am Just "Me"
When you look at me,
What is it you see?
Do you see thru my disguise??
see my insecurity?
see my fear?
see my pain?
see that I am lost?
Do you see this at all?
Or do you see the mask?
The power and assurance?
The smile and confidence?
The strength and falsities
that I wear like a cloak.
For this is who you'd like to know
For underneath is fragile
and completely bedraggled..
Trust me you'd prefer the show
The real me is much too scary
To get to know...
someone once gave me this as a birdhouse. but if i was a bird, i wouldn't go into a mouth. seems kinda scary.
Worked again today, did a bit better on my sales and wore my first super trendy outfit to work! It was a success! I also learned I must not be doing as horrible as I thought because I have five 8hr shifts on the new schedule and the 3rd most hours for a non-manager! Yay money to pay off shopping spree caused by my new job!
For FGR...Attention Whores
Some of my aunt's bleeding hearts. They are one of my favorite flowers. Its so neat how they look just like a heart.
I like when building and stuff appear like something else, so this house for me is a giant mouth waiting for a delicious breakfast...
Dust to dust
For the rest of this month of May, I have decided to take this opportunity to do the
30 SECRETS IN 30 DAYS challenge! I will tell you my secrets. Day-by-day :) Ok, some may seem like facts, but they're still things not many people know about, thus qualifying them to BE secrets. Heh.
I took this shot when I went exploring along the coastal line in Cornwall. Whilst Ally went surfing, I went shooting. Pretty good deal :)
My fourth secret is this: I have a vague idea of what I want at my funeral. Is that bad? Hmm. It's funny because when Ally was reading through my list of secrets [oh yes, I've planned them all out!] she said haha, yeh she knows what song I want played at my funeral [a good thing I told her then!]
But I DO have a vague and general idea of what I'd want at my funeral. And what's even more weird is that I look forward to it. I don't know if I'll see it [I wish I can at least be there to witness who will be there to say goodbye]. But it'll be interesting to see how important I played in the lives of the people who will attend the service. I find this really interesting. Ok. I'm weird. I'm not normal. But I don't mind the thought of death.
I used to want to be cremated. Now I'm thinking I may want to be buried after all. Not 100% sure where. But I know what I'd want done at the service. What songs to play. A photo-montage done by a good friend or something. But I'd want a 2 hour worship session afterwards too. And nobody is allowed to wear black [although black is a nice colour] I've decided I want people to wear white. Because white symbols purity. White is also the typical colour chinese people wear when in mourning too. But white because it's bright, positive, and because I want everyone to remember the time when I stopped wearing black [I used to be a goth], and swapped that for wearing white or other light coloured clothes.
Is it wrong to plan your own funeral? I don't think so. So there's my secret :)